My biggest battles are the ones I have against myself. Too many times, I have forgotten that there are moments of weaknesses that come from within, and it is where to get the only source of strength that combat them.
But for now, I let myself lose. Because I know that by doing so, I also allow myself to win. Or at the very least, I allow myself the freedom to choose which of my self-battles I can overcome, and which to let go. After all, I am defeated in more ways than one. Let me lose by choice now.
Tomorrow, I will be in my own place, and you will stay in yours. You will stop looking for me and I will stop offering myself like a martyr. I am indebted to you for giving me a temporary purpose, which I need to release at this exact moment. Hopefully, I find my significance in things far from you. Hopefully, I can exist without you.