Things I can't help but think about even if I don't want to.
I am disappointed. I want to get all angry at you but that’s too counter productive. Instead, I will do what I’ve always been doing, and that’s to get this ass back together and get things done myself.
I am tired of always proving things to you. I’m tired of forcing myself to you when obviously, I have no place in all of this. I’m tired of the pity. I’m tired of being undeservingly rejected. I’m tired of thinking too hard about where I’ve gone wrong only to come up with nothing in the end. I’m tired. I’m just tired.
Speaking of rejection, I prefer it straight to the point. Silences are the weirdest, it could mean anything, and I’m scared to misinterpret something that could really go either way. What I’m trying to say is, prangkahin mo na ko, wag mo lang akong bastusin.
My life, in this aspect, has got to mean some thing more than this weird notion of an ever revolving epiphany of lopsidedness.
This is getting upsettingly unreciprocated.
I’ve been spending time away from you not because I don’t want to be with you, but more of the fact that it’s not nice to be around you anymore. So yeah, maybe it is because I don’t want to be with you anymore.
I want out.
I think of too many things that I don’t want to think about.